Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Why do I feel like this?

  I have really felt like crap for a few days now. I don't know what is going on with me, but I feel even more tired than normal, have had dizziness and tinnitus in both ears for about a week now.  I will be going to my doctor next week, hopefully. It has been since July since I have had a chance to see him, since I have no insurance.
 I need to update my Dr. as to how I am feeling lately, and hopefully he will be able to send something to my disability lawyer stating that he feels I am no longer able to work, since this should help my case immensely.
 I had a great idea as to what to do for my birthday this year, hope fully it goes well. I am planning to have a charity birthday party, and instead of receiving gifts, I would like everyone to give, whatever they can afford, to www.apsfa.org which is the Antiphospholipid Syndrome Foundation of America. I would wish that everyone could donate something, whether it be $1 or $100, whatever you can afford.

 My brain doesn't work anymore, its like a huge part of who I thought I was is gone. I can't think straight, or remember anything anymore. I can not spell, or sometimes even make a coherent sentence. I pass out, sometimes without warning. I get dizzy from standing, or at least really tired quickly. My personality has changed, as my wife has pointed out to me. I have also noticed that I have a temper now, which I never had before.
I don't really have much to say today, just felt like I needed to say something.

                       I have APS, APS does not have me.


  1. Hey my APS friend. You just recently visted my Men & APS site. I feel for what you are going through right now. However I am inspired by your final line on your posts: "I have APS, APS doesn't have me". More inspirational than you will ever know. It's just what I need to hear right now. Your Kindred spirit in APS, -Carson

    1. thank you, i have been enjoying reading your blog as well, I am glad we can spread the word that APS isnt just a womens disease. And, once again, thank you for checking out my blog.